Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Long lost wishes...........

Where to start.......I've been corresponding with a number of women these past several weeks, only one of whom answered my CL ad. This woman lives not too far away. Her and I have the greatest rapport but due to time constraints on her part have been unable to meet face to face as of yet. Hopefully soon though. Another woman I started chatting with from Chemistry.com. We share a common love of sports and the arts and email everyday. She's got a big heart, working with special ed kids. Actually the first one does too, working with disabled children. The second woman lives 3 hours away and we have yet to talk on the phone but that will change starting Friday when her cell service kicks in. Yes, 3 hours but relatively close to Chicago, an area I would not mind being at all. More on that later.

The 3rd woman is someone who completely disappeared from my life almost as quickly as she came. While I was wrestling with the complications of my separation this woman and I met online nearly two years ago. We talked, and laughed together; absolutely wonderful connection. We made each other forget about life for the time we were on the phone together. It was only natural that we meet. But on two separate occasions something came up on her part. I had though she flaked on me, that she had gotten scared. After the second time I threw in the towel on her. This was during the time I had a job interview in New Mexico. We were planning on meeting for dinner the day I get back. She sends me a message that something came up again. So that's where things ended with her.

Well now, lo and behold come yesterday out of nowhere she sends me a chat message and we start talking. She tells me she has been recovering from surgery much of that time as well as taking in her daughter and her family, who have now since moved out and onto another area. She's also telling about the guys in her life who end up concealing a criminal past, and not dating because of attracting that kind of person.
We chat, we talk on the phone several times yesterday and it's like not missing a beat. After my cell call was dropped last night she leaves me a voicemail saying she hopes that she can make it down to me soon so I can show her around and take things from there. She also talked about if things worked out to make a pact to see no one else, even with her impending winter trip to San Diego.

So questions in my mind.........Is this for real? Is she the one in this case jumping the gun? I wonder if someone in her past-maybe her father had a criminal history, otherwise why the criminal attraction? I do feel good talking with her. I always have. I don't want to rush into anything but if she's of clear head, not desperate for a relationship after over 10 years of being single and dating bad guys I do not want to pass this by. But I also have a good feeling about the first woman although our history isn't anywhere near as deep. I wish I had a gut feeling as to what to do but right now I don't.

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